I’m afraid. I’m afraid that I’m going to be afraid my whole life. I don’t want to be.

It’s natural to be a afraid. It means you’re alive. If you’re not afraid, you’re in a blissful state of ignorance. That or you’re drunk.

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The only thing we have control over is what we have in front of us: today. All you can do is be fully, absolutely present to your day. I’m not saying not to save money or plan for the future, but you cannot have or enjoy those things if you are not present to your current self. Not the past. Not the future.

silence

What are you thinking?

No words really, just more of an image.

Ok.

I thought of a long row of lamps. I want to make sure the ones down the line are lit. Ideally I want all of them lit, but I’m obsessed with making sure the ones up there, the ones for later are going to be lit.

If the lamps are all connected, the only way for those lamps to be lit is if there is energy in your lamp today. And with your faulty wiring, you aren’t lighting up the lamp in front of you.

If I don’t light up the lamp in front of me…

…then there’s no light or energy to spill onto tomorrow’s lamp. Cause it’s sure not going to light itself.